The 4 words

I like you, boy :)

Thank you for telling me that you like me :) I was really happy when you said that! I went so high :) Was jumping and whatever not :P This is the first time when a guy confessed to me and never ask me for an answer... This is so unexpected :) Cause I really don't know that you will be in love with me :) I am not that kind of beautiful and amazing girl in the guy's eyes. I am nothing good.. But of course ... I do felt that you like me for what you have done :) Actually that day we went for the trip, while you were sleeping.. I can't stop looking at you... I am so afraid that I will fall in love again :( Which is what I don't want.. I've been hurt and I don't want this to happen again :( Before it happens I will stop all the feeling that I have inside me.. So then I stopped looking for awhile... But, no matter how much I looked away... My head will still be loosing control and looked at you again.. I realised that your eyelashes are really nice and long :) And you have the same nose as your dad :) I am so sorry for staring at you while you were sleeping...:S And Thank God .... The trip is only for the whole day.. Cause if it would have last longer, like a few days.. I can't tell you that I won't fall :) Cause I don't want to look at you every time.. :) Even I really want to, but I try not to ... :) I love the family photo that we have took that day when we returned to your house.. It was one of the best photo in my album :) And we do looked like a family, I think :P I printed them out. One is in my album, the other one is right in front of my bed where every morning I can see that photo and the last one I will put in my locker next year :) 11th of December was one of the best day after so many problems have happened... Which is the day we went for trip together :) And well... 14th of December too! Cause you confessed to me that you like me on that day :) And one question, why don't you ask me the answer? :-O You are not ready for the answer? Or you are scared that I am not ready with the answer? Anyway.. if I would have the chance to spend another one day with you.. I will tell you what I want to tell you everything inside me! I will tell you all! But sadly you are leaving me soon :( That's another reason why, I can't give you the answer.. Cause I don't have the confident to be with someone thousand miles away :( And on the other hand, I am not over someone yet ! :( If you can help me with that, I think we can be? When the Prom Night, I will tell you how I feel about you, what I think of you and everything JUST ABOUT YOU! I will tell you how amazing you are, How handsome you are, How great you are, How fabulous you are, How funny you are , How incredible you are, etc...... etc...! Thank you for protecting me or siding me when someone said that I am pure short! But she just insulted herself that way... CAUSE SHE IS NOT ANY TALLER! Prom Night, I will give you a big hug and a big kiss before you go! And of course.... I will tell you the four words that is inside me for a long long long time! which is '' I LIKE YOU TOO! '' I hope you can wait until Prom Night :) I will sure going to tell you that ! And another thing is that you are my Guardian Angel too :) And I felt happiness and love when I was with your family! :) THANK YOU, dear! :)

Happiness is just so east :)

Such a Great day :)

I never thought that he can be so funny :P He make me happy all the time when I am sad :) Just want to say Thank you to him :) He is such a good friend to me :) Thank you for asking me to go and have a trip with his family :) I really appreciate it :) I hope before he go, we all will have something like this again! He told me jokes and all that.. I just can't stop smiling when I was with his family yesterday :) Everything turned up great! Only that... we didn't go to the seaside :S Cause it was raining :( I was thinking to pick up some seashells and make some present for them :) But... I will find a way to get seashells after all ! When he was sleeping beside me in the car, I can't stop looking at his eyelashes :) It is so long and nice :) And I really need to give a big hug to his mum and his dad :) Cause his dad bought me a necklace :) A very simple one, but it is so cool and nice! And his mum, baked me some bun :) I really love it! And of course she gave me a big hug when I am leaving :) :D I will always remember today :) Today is the first time I ever get Xmas present :) And I got a small teddy bear, mug, Xmas hat and also a card :) Thank you so much for being like this to me! I will never forget about you when you return to your own country :( But... I will sure going to visit you!  I'll make sure that! I will never forget what you have said today :) I will remember every sentences that you have said :P it is one of my nicest and greatest memories :) Kiitos todella paljon! And I will make sure I will send something to you and your family! I have all the ideas in my head now! I really hope that you will appreciate the things I did! :) And you are one of my Guardian Angel too! :) :D

Tomorrow is a better day!

Everyone have their bad and good days :) I am sure tomorrow will be a better day! :) Tomorrow will be the 11th of December :) Will be one of the BEST day in the whole year of mine too! Guess what! I am going to have fun! So the one whom I am not over with .. Tomorrow I am going to forget about you! :) And I will find someone better! :) :D Don't ever think that you are the one and only in my life! I know I will still think of you some time! :) But I tell you what...... Time can prove everything! So I will and I can get over you! I don't know why when I call you every time you will not answer... I did worried about you.. But now I think it is wasting my time? :) Cause you have some one else to worry about for you :) And guess what again? :) I have some one else to worry about me :P So now I think you are nothing to me :) I know when I wrote this, I am breaking myself :) But, I am not going to think of you again! :) And the Teddy Bear that you bought for me the other day, I will keep it in a big box :) So that I don't hug it at night :) And so that I won't think of you again :) And the pictures, I will put it aside :) But I think.... better to burn it? :) Cause these memories, are the one that made me can't get over you :( I wish in my heart that some where in my body will have a reset button :) So I think of you no more! :) :D I want to get on with my life! :) I am sure some where near me, I can find my happiness :) Or even some where far :) My happiness is waiting for me, all around the world! :) And I will be an exchange student :P So now see who is the lucky guy :D I will fly over and get him myself ;) So.....!~ Get your own happiness! :) And comment on every girls' wall how beautiful and amazing they are! :) And YOU don't need to comment on mine! :) Cause all the guys are waiting to comment on it :P And you are just the LITTLE THING!  :D I felt so sorry for the guys out there now :) Cause I rejected them, because of you :P And now I am stupid cause you are not my Mr.Right! :P I think in the 10 of the boys out there, one of them will be! Well.... I don't like local people! :) So, I didn't count them in~! :) And I know I am not some one beautiful for you! I am not amazing! But according to my Guardian Angels :) I am beautiful, incredible, funny, cute, amazing, special and fantastic! Why can't YOU see me through their eyes?

I shouldn't see that :(

I shouldn't see what I've saw :( I saw the comments that you have commented on the other girl's wall.. Well, you stated there that she is wonderful and beautiful, you have never seen one! Am I really that ugly to you? If yes, don't confess to me at the very first time! You have NEVER EVER   comment on my pictures :( You have NEVER like any of my pictures :( Is clicking a 'like' button a tough job for you?? If it is, I am very happy to know that! I can't believe what I saw with my own eyes. :''''''''( I am your girlfriend, and yet you commented on the other girl's picture instead :'( Am I a big shame to you? That you dare not to tell your friends that you are in a relationship with me? I thought you will be proud of me! :( Why are we like this now? :( What happened to our relationship????? Why can a guy just come to me and say to me every time that ''Michelle, you are beautiful'' ...... WHY can't you? And I am your GIRLFRIEND! I know I am not that type of girl, who is beautiful enough to let you comment on! When I saw what you've commented on that girl's wall.. I wasn't angry nor sad. All I was thinking is to stand under the rain! And wake myself up under the heavy rain! :( To all the guys out there, I am super number ONE! They said that I am very special.. What am I in your eyes?!?!~ A toy? Which you think when you are fed-up of me and put me aside??? I am crying hard when I wrote this. I don't believe what I've saw :( And yet it is true! PLEASE~ ..... some one come to me and tell me it is not true! I know I am nothing to you! Two is better than one? One is better than two now! I always hope that you will be my Guardian Angel :( Cause last time you will ALWAYS be there... When I need you.. Nowadays, I don't know what the hell you go when I need you SO MUCH!  Ended up----> some guys come and comfort me! Do you think, they have took your place?? They are my Guardian Angels now! But not YOU! Do you ever think this is what I want? My song title was right! '' WE AREN'T MEANT TO BE''~! And I have guys out there! Don't ever think that I can't live without you! I am aright and it is OKAY! I will tell the whole world I am much better without you! I know I am going to miss you like damn MUCH! But you DON'T  worth my tears! I've cried for you! And now I am trying to go on without you~! I know this is a tough job! But I'm sorry! Humans are all selfish! I am not going to give a damn about you! I said this, and I meant it! If you want me back, I don't think I will be there! Just hope some day I will change my mind again! Now is a good time, where I think it is time to move on! So if you call me some day, just be sure I will pick up! Cause, I have nothing to say to YOU!

This song is for you :)



SONG WRITTEN BY : Michelle Wong

we aren't meant to be :(

Verse1:

A thousand of sweet memories of you and me together

it's all I have of you and me

and that's all
we were so in love and we thought
we were meant to be forever
but broken apart by our thoughts
Chorus:
I won't cry for you
and I try not to miss you
but the toughest thing I have to do
is forget 'bout you
and I wondered
how can I do so?
Verse2:
Searching reasons why we can't be together
it's all I'm thinking of
day and night
don't you know that I'm not over you?
I'm stupid to fall in love with you
cause I know that you won't catch me
it's amazing that I love you
with all the broken pieces inside me
Chorus:
I won't cry for you
and I try not to miss you
but the toughest thing I have to do
is forget 'bout you
and I wondered
how can I do so?
Verse3:
Thank you for what you've gave
what you've done and things you said
I'm still not over you
can you please turn around?
come back to me
so I won't dream without you tonight

I just want you now

Chorus:

I won't cry for you

and I try not to miss you

but the toughest thing I have to do

is forget 'bout you

and I wondered

how can I do so?

Never want to wait again :(

Don't break the promise, that you promised

If you have a good memory, I think you could remember I'd waited for you in a shopping mall for 7 hours. That day you broke my heart badly. I never did waited for someone for so long! I wasn't angry, but I was so sad and heartbroken :( That day was few days before I am going to China. You never apologize to me, until few days later. I am happy that you did :) And I called you when I was in China. I never forget you, no matter where I am :) But how about you? Will you remember me? I asked this Question because I know I can never ever forget you in life.. Because YOU are the one that I love the most and who hurt me the most. Do you know that? I'd waited for you about a year and a half. I never get angry at you even though I'd waited for 7 hours in the shopping mall. Cause I know compared to one year and a half, 7 hours are just little thing :(

FlashBack :(

Can I have that smile again?

I never want to remember you again! But today when I went to the shop where you bought me that teddy bear :( Suddenly I remember you :( I just hated you so much, Dear :( You broke my heart into pieces :( But do you know.. even then, I love you with all the small little pieces that have broken :'(  Today I went to that shopping mall where we used to go :( Now, I am all by myself.... I was walking on the stairs and that's where I broke my heart again :( The escalator, where we used to hugged and kissed :( I hate you! I hate you! If you don't like me tell me! Don't make me guess what you are thinking! And no silent break up! I know deep in my heart, love will not last :( Maybe I was naive, thought that you will love me until our life end :(  you make me smile when I am sad. Now I am DAMN SAD! But where are you now??? Lost?! Leave me alone :( Please! I never want to dream about you :(  It's nightmare, too much of sweet memories :( I don't need them now :(

A new Start :)

Germany :)

The first day of school after a long holiday, you gave me your jacket. I love it a lot :) This jacket is with me all the time. I wear it in school. I bring it along when I go for a trip :) It is kind of thick, really warm, it is like you are with me when I wear it :) But now I can't wear it in school :( Cause of the new school rules :S So stupid!~ And you gave me your school sweater too :) Mostly all the time I will wear it and now it is mine :D If I am not mistaken you only wore it once :S I am so sorry about that :D Thank you for giving me so much things, because of all these, I don't feel alone :) I could feel that you are with me all the time :) But I know some day you will leave me :( I never want this to happen :( Cause I love you a lot! But..... Fate :( Some time I will think that God is fooling me around with you :S I don't know what He will make my life with you to be :(

Valentine's Day

Wonder if you can REMEMBER?

Thank you for the rose that you have gave me last year Valentine's Day. Even though it was just one rose.. I kept it until now, I will never forget :) Thank you! After you gave me that rose, I brought it back to class.. Everyone was wondering, who is the one who gave me. Everyone started guessing.. But no one says your name :P Some boys were kidding angry... :) That rose have a great smell after so long for keeping it. I put it on my table where every time when I wake up I could see it! And that remind me of you! I am happy! I hope next year I will get roses from you. If that time, you can still remember me. Which I know, you won't :( That time you will have your new life and me? Thinking of you day and night? Daydream about you? Even when I sleep, I see you in my dream every time! I have been thinking too much of you!

Birthday Present



My hard work :) [second]

If you still can remember your birthday this year, what I have gave you. Maybe this can be a part of memory of yours... It is also a very good memory to me. I never thought of making something for your birthday. But I think this year is different. That's my hard work, if you can feel it. But, I don't think you will :( It's just so sad! It's okay, because all I have done is worth at the end, because you smiled. :) And I asked my friend to baked you a cake, and I took it to your classroom. After that you hugged me! That time I was sick (fever), but because I wanted to give you that cake so I go to school. Anyway, when you hugged me..... I felt so warm :) and that time my body temperature is going higher too :) Most probably my face was like an apple at the moment :) which is a good thing!  I wondered if you can remember my birthday? :S I hoped you will be the first one who wish me! :)

The Pictures, Memories :(

Poison OR Antidote?

Can we?

Maybe to you, our pictures are just nothing. But to me, it is everything. That was about one year ago... When the first time we took the first picture.. That day, was right after school. We walked along the roadside, and we sat under a tree for taking that picture. When you took picture with me my heart was about to jumped out. You were so close to me until I can't breathe! That day, I was thinking about you. I can't forget that moment. It's just hard to get out from my mind :) I really love it when you are really close to me. I feel secure and warm. The second time we took a picture was actually on the last day of school, when we have Summer Break. That day was 24th July, you might say that I am stupid to remember all these date, which is not a big day. To you yes, it is not, but to me, you will never know! After taking the picture.... Suddenly you gave me a hug, GOD...! That very first hug you gave me was so warm! On the way back home, I was smiling in sweetness :) and that night I called you just to tell you that your hug is nice :) You were laughing at me :) Sometime I just hate you so much! Because of all the great and sweet memories that you have gave me! Now it is hard to get it out from my mind! :( It is like a poison, what if in my whole life I can't have you? And you gave me all those memories! How can I forget? :( The memories inside my heart, maybe it is poison or maybe it is antidote :(  Now, I really can't tell you the difference :( It's is killing me but on the other hand some time that's all I'd left with :'(

27th March

I am not a Princess :(

The happiest day in the year 2009, One day before my birthday. You brought me to see a Doctor, cause I am sick. And you paid for me. You even bought me food and drinks. You accompanied me for 6 hours. I was scared, because my dad didn't know that I wasn't in school. Thank you for that, I know I won't forget :) That day is Heaven, in that whole year :) My life was in misery until I meet you. I don't know if is God fooling me around. I never thought of falling for you, cause I know you won't catch me somehow! You and I are now together it was merely an accident. You are from a different world. And I meet you, how could that be? Fate? I believe in fate... but you and I, can it be? :( I have got no confident :( I think now, 12 O'clock is near... Time to turn myself back to Cinderella, no more a princess :( But somehow, I am not a princess! I will never be one! :'(

When I dream of you :(

I miss you, Dear :(

Yesterday night... after I was asleep.. suddenly I dream of you. I swear each time, when I dream of you I never want to wake up from my dream :) It is just too sweet :) until I don't want to wake up. You are my prince, but I know I am not a princess :( I love you a lot... now we are together, but I don't feel love anymore. :( Are you bored of me? Maybe you do, you didn't call me for a week :( last time you used to call every night :( Now?? What happened?!

heartbroken day

If you are here.........Don't let me go

I never be so sad in my life. After I am with my boyfriend. I  love him a lot.. i waited for him for a long time he confessed to me on the 13th of July 2010. That night, I didn’t sleep at all. I was so happy, i kept asking myself if i am dreaming… He love me? What??? I never thought I will have him in my life That night was Heaven to me My story with him is like a fairytale. I am with him for about 4 months. Now we didn’t talk much like last time.. I don’t know what is the reason. He said, he want to make things work, between me and him. But, it seems nothing happen Why things are going like this? I love him SO much, can’t he feel my love to him? I love him till the deepest part in my heart. Sadly, he never know that Maybe it is too late now

I will fly when you are with me