FlashBack :(

Can I have that smile again?

I never want to remember you again! But today when I went to the shop where you bought me that teddy bear :( Suddenly I remember you :( I just hated you so much, Dear :( You broke my heart into pieces :( But do you know.. even then, I love you with all the small little pieces that have broken :'(  Today I went to that shopping mall where we used to go :( Now, I am all by myself.... I was walking on the stairs and that's where I broke my heart again :( The escalator, where we used to hugged and kissed :( I hate you! I hate you! If you don't like me tell me! Don't make me guess what you are thinking! And no silent break up! I know deep in my heart, love will not last :( Maybe I was naive, thought that you will love me until our life end :(  you make me smile when I am sad. Now I am DAMN SAD! But where are you now??? Lost?! Leave me alone :( Please! I never want to dream about you :(  It's nightmare, too much of sweet memories :( I don't need them now :(